I had some experiences like this in the past, when i was mis/underdiagnosed.
I'd try to get some natural help, for example 5HTP and L-Tyrosin, maybe some Ashwagandha extract too (If you don't get a sore throat from the latter, like a few other people).
Even if it makes you feel only -5/10 it's worth it.
I was giving Rick a long-winded brain-dump approximating the physical sensations, and came up with the following paraphrase.
"It's like all my neurons and synapse pairs are playing a unique high-speed game of Tetris, with only 6 lines of movement room to work with. Every time I want to make a move, every synapse pair has to pause, write out to disk the entire state of the game, and load it back up to the next nearest synapse pair. Unpause the game, and repeat for the next move across every synapse pair in your stupid gray matter.
Also, I'm not sure how this sensation is even possible to contemplate, but my stomach seems to have found a way to turn itself inside out.
Oh, did I mention these axe-splitting headaches?
Furthermore, why is the ground underneath my feet so wobbly? WTF is going on, dude?"Bleh. It sucks, but I gotta get through this.
Self-improvement by removing an entire combo class of pharmaceuticals out of my system after a couple decades of directed use.
Time to get entirely clean for ranch life.
Have been absolutely alcohol sober for quite some time now, and finding I'm really enjoying life a lot more.
About 12 years ago I had to go through a very long and harrowing medical treatment, that involved regular self-injections and daily pills. I saw myself transforming mentally, to the point of nearly causing physical harm to myself and those around me, even those I dearly loved. I was advised by my doctor that this would happen, but one can't really be prepared for actually experiencing it. I could smell the distinct smell of the drugs on washed clothes, even several months after completing the treatment. The treatment was successful and I'm alive to tell the tale. Nothing to do with cancer.
Excluding painkillers for the occasional headache, I haven't taken a pill since then, and I intend to keep it that way. Problem is, as we're getting older we will all eventually have to start taking regular medications. Not against it, but trying to avoid it as long as I can, by keeping fit, eating well (not easy these days), and taking things easy. Bitcoin has helped a lot in that regard, I must say.
Wishing you all the best and I hope you keep your system clean of pharmaceuticals and alcohol. Esp. the latter is not worth the damage it can do to you, IMHO.
